Ode to Wendy

In like a lamb
out like lions
our roars
were sirens
to jump ship

so we did

our ark doomed
from the start
faith invested in
opposite body parts
you trust your brain
I trust my heart
Logic vs Love
a battle fought

but never won

telling me "do less"
while I search
to do more
than sit
and drink
and sleep
and score

telling me "do less"
while I long
to caress
your mind
your heart
your shell
and its core

often in the dark
about how you feel
you like to keep cool
I like to keep it real
my only desire
was some fire
to melt the chill
and shed some light
some warmth to prove
my theory right
that is was us all along

I guess I was wrong

tried to push through
the last jaded layers
but you pushed back
more than before
lovers turned generals
of an uncivil war
finished so fast
we could never get far

now I'm in this life raft
dividing fiction from fact
wandering, wondering
while one thought
keeps coming back-

I don't love the girl
that the world
has turned you into
I love the girl
that the universe
gave a gift to

the girl with a butterfly
on her bright floral pants
who still believes
in fairy tales
and dreams
and romance
I love the girl
overgrown inside
the one
that you numb
and cover
and hide

maybe I'm a fool for thinking
I could dig you out
I should have known
I would fall in myself
but now I've resurfaced
and I'm drifting at sea
where you can be you
and I can be me
I found the answer
swimming in my gut-

darling, I loved you
before you grew up. 

Love Letter to a Star

You step into the box
the doctor closes the door
behind you
I stand watching
for ten songs' time
following each recycled breath
with my own two lungs.

You bravely look forward
as tubes and technology
calculate your fate
but all I can do is stare
at my favorite flower
in a glass case
like a fairytale.

If only this were make-believe.

Truth is-
the moment that door closed
I learned what love is.

I knew I would Walk Through Hell
and fight Intergalactic wars
just to be Stuck in the Middle With You
where we could Build A Home
and sail Into the Mystic
under the Amber sun
gazing at a sky with No Rain
and always reminding me "Don't Panic"
like you knew it's Just What I Needed
because even when life is a Bittersweet Symphony
it's still the most incredible playlist I know
when we are together.

The doctor opens the door
smiling with a mouthful of good news
as we exhale days of fear
and inhale a lifetime of love
I realize-

the happiest I've ever been
is when I'm breathing with you. 

Happy New Year!

September is a month of metamorphosis. From fresh starts at school to new apartments to autumn leaves, change is self-evident. It’s presence can be felt through all five senses and transform life as we previously understood it to be.

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So I propose a movement. A calendar shift of New Year’s Day from January 1^st to September 1^st, effective on this day in 2012. The traditions are similar, except New Year’s Eve is spent at a bonfire with the people that matter most to you, sharing memories and celebrating the past, future, and most importantly- the present. As the first to observe this revised holiday, I’ve created a list of resolutions. These are not your typical New Year’s resolutions, but rather a new guideline on how I plan to live. Cheers to transformation!

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• Be real. Zero caddy, petty, or dramatic behavior (no exceptions).
• Be honest. No lies, exaggerations, or BS (for any reason).
• Love without conditions or expectations.
• No talking about the lives of celebrities (unless the conversation relates to a pep talk or constructive lesson about life).
• Less profanity.
• Make more eye contact and smile.
• Give at least one stranger a compliment every day.
• Be safe, but not scared. There is no room in my body for fear.
• Spend more time with children and animals.
• Be conscious, be present.
• Stay curious. Try something new every week (activity, food, location, music, etc).
• Let go. The only things I have the ability to control are my own thoughts, intentions, and actions.
• Don’t be negatively critical whatsoever. Instead be positive and encouraging in my words and actions (to others and to myself).
• Be patient and kind. The most wonderful things take time.
• Read 1-2 educational books a month.
• Interview motivated people and collect advice from different perspectives.
• Ask 10 people a week about songs and create 1 mixtape each week.
• Create 1 drawing, painting, or invention each week.
• Be active at least 30 minutes a day and exercise 1 hour 3 times a week.
• Rearrange my taste buds by reducing sugar and salt intake.
• Limit social media usage to 30 minutes daily.
• Make a budget plan and be precise with my finances.
• Floss everyday.
• Meditate at least 15 minutes every night.
• Be the change. Volunteer one weekend a month.
• Be with family. Visit home one weekend a month.
• Send love. Write and mail 1 letter to a friend each week.
• Speak less, listen more.
• Complete at least one thing on my bucket list by next September. 
• Dedicate good vibes to one person in the world each day.

Happy New Year everyone!