Ode to Wendy

In like a lamb
out like lions
our roars
were sirens
to jump ship

so we did

our ark doomed
from the start
faith invested in
opposite body parts
you trust your brain
I trust my heart
Logic vs Love
a battle fought

but never won

telling me "do less"
while I search
to do more
than sit
and drink
and sleep
and score

telling me "do less"
while I long
to caress
your mind
your heart
your shell
and its core

often in the dark
about how you feel
you like to keep cool
I like to keep it real
my only desire
was some fire
to melt the chill
and shed some light
some warmth to prove
my theory right
that is was us all along

I guess I was wrong

tried to push through
the last jaded layers
but you pushed back
more than before
lovers turned generals
of an uncivil war
finished so fast
we could never get far

now I'm in this life raft
dividing fiction from fact
wandering, wondering
while one thought
keeps coming back-

I don't love the girl
that the world
has turned you into
I love the girl
that the universe
gave a gift to

the girl with a butterfly
on her bright floral pants
who still believes
in fairy tales
and dreams
and romance
I love the girl
overgrown inside
the one
that you numb
and cover
and hide

maybe I'm a fool for thinking
I could dig you out
I should have known
I would fall in myself
but now I've resurfaced
and I'm drifting at sea
where you can be you
and I can be me
I found the answer
swimming in my gut-

darling, I loved you
before you grew up.